Finally. Finally. Finally

I don't want to wake before/
The dream is over/
I'm gonna make it mine/
Yes I, I know it/

I'm Gonna make it mine/
Yes I'll make it all mine/

I don't know what happened. A week into something new, I guess something new happened. I felt extremely compelled to do something. I felt the urge, the pull, to write. Something I have always loved to do....but i have never felt this tug before. Its like eating. I want to do it all the time, i want to express how i feel at a certain point, and dont care whatsoever what anyone else things.

Not saying i'm perfect at it yet

Its gonna take some practice, but it will become fluent.

but i am loving every second.

Jcp

So it begins

Have alot on my plate this year,
at least more than i am used to.

haven't had time to write much latley, even though i think about it every second of the day
how i want to finish this song, how i have ideas for 2 more.

but i need to slow myself down first. its imperative.
i can't think about concentrating untill i actually can concentrate

because in reality i know what i want.
i know what i love
i love the arts, i love music, i love meaningful lyrics that snap

i'll get there,
and i'm ready to succeed

but first

joel,

slow down

Pile Up

It just happens,
when you're mad, the little things pile up and make it that much worse.

just one thing after another. you're brakes squeak, you didn't finish things you wanted to. someone is asking you to do something you don't want to.

then there are times when a big thing just tops it all off.
your brother slams the door because of a hot temper and unfortunately your natural instinct is to put your hands up to defend yourself, causing an impact which results in a broken door.

usually someone would be mad about all this,

but honestly i just have to sit back and laugh.

because if someone needing my help, my brakes squeaking and a broken door is as bad as its gonna get in a while...

i'm sitten pretty good

standstill

The summer is almost done... something new is on its way,
I can't tell you what it will bring, but there's one thing i can say

it is not supposed to rhyme, its not supposed to be,
anything incredible.. the naked eye can see.

its something uncommenly normal,
its something that doesn't make sense
its something thats happened before
its something thats not deadly

so why am i afraid? why am i worried?
why do i think endlessly, trying to find an answer.
to something that hasn't happened. something i have to wait for.

this next year is a toss up, something new at best.

but i'm ready,
i'm ready for the change ahead
i'm ready for the experience.
i'm ready to be separated.. to an extent
i'm ready for new love
i'm ready to drive

i'm ready for this to start with this new year.

but for now,

i'm at a temporary standstill..

bombshell

well, just found out i'm not living with my best friends next year. i was the odd man out in the apartment of three.. doesn't make sense to me because of a lot of reasons..but what can i do now?

nothin i can do but watch it happen

guess thats life at the moment.

Let it Shine

Let it go,
Let it roll right off your shoulder,
dont you know?
The hardest part is over,
let it in,
Let you're clarity define you in the end
We will only just remember how it feels.

I watched a movie with my siblings a couple days ago. And for some reason, even though this movie is ment more for younger kids, it was the wake up call i have been lookin for for quite a while. The simple message of keep moving forward, the best is yet to come...
A message to keep goin, don't be afraid to fail.
What is important is that you learn, you find your path... you grow.

Our lives are made,
in these small hours.
these little wonders.....

What a bitch...did you really fall for her?

Holly's looking dry looking for an easy target

Let her slit my throat give her ammo if she'll use it

Caution on the road lies lies and hidden danger.

Southern California's breeding mommy's little monster.

Better run run run run run (Holly let me out)

Better run run run run run (Holly let me out)

Better run run run run run (Holly let me out)

Better run run run run run run run (Holly let me out)

I really dont mean to complain, its really not my thing, and i dont like to do it.. especially in a blog..if i gotta do it, i would much rather do it face to face, but thats besides the point.

Like i was saying, i dont mean to complain, but one of my friend's so called girlfriend is a GIANT BITCH! i have no idea how he would fall for someone so self centered, so....oblivious to anything that might not benefit her. i really dont get it.. and not only is she a bitch, but she is not only taking one of my best friends, she is changing him...

not a good combination. so waht do i do in this situation? right now, all of my group of friends feel him drifting... do we wait for him to come back, and act like it was okay? that leaves the opportunity for him to walk all over us again. OR, do we stick it to him, be major assholes... and let him know that he shouldn't have let her do that.

All i know is, he has to learn by himself. There really isn't anything we can do as friends, but let him learn, and find things out for himself. It just hurts..

holly, let him out..

and stay out..